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Road Trippin…..

Road Trippin

 

There’s the rumble of the tires on the asphalt road, the wind blowing across the car with deafening sound and sweaty hair stuck to faces, as kids in the back seat ask, “When are we going to get there?”

There’s a stop for gas and a Polaroid camera, the station with a general store attached to it has salt water taffy and I am happy; all the flavors are my favorites! The man came out and began to fill my dad’s car up with gas and he washed the bugs off the windshield too! He and my dad chatted as the man pointed here and there as they were both looking at the atlas.

My mom sprayed her hair with hairspray and went back to reading her romance paperback. I don’t know why she keeps doing that we’re all choking back here! Also my mother thinks we can’t read too, it’s a book about kissing I am sure of it!

My brothers argue and wrestle, but me, I just peered out into the sky above me. I’m watching the clouds; they somehow look different out here. I suppose being out in the middle of nowhere means there just might be a little more sky!

I see there is way more room to play, but it doesn’t look like there are any kids around, just miles of corn and behind that  miles more of corn!  By the time my dad has gotten back into the car, I have already spotted an entire zoo worth of animals in those clouds, and I can even swear I see my grandmother’s face there too!

Time to go back onto the humming road now and count the thwamps and rumbles on the different pavements and undoubtedly I will fall fast asleep and miss the Native Americans on the plains that I think I might see.  I will also miss the license plate game my mom will play or 50 guesses question game, but who cares I’ll have my dreams of being a prairie girl like in my story books.

I’ll dream of what could be in the next town and the town after that!  And from this day on I will always have a sense of wonder, of what that next town will bring, more flavors of taffy pulled; I hope, or maybe just maybe, how many more miles of unfound zoo animals or grandmothers faces will be in the sky above me.

Merry-Go-Round Memories

Merry-Go-Round Memories

 

Memories; lifetimes should be filled with them. Memories should make us giggle with delight

like when recalling your 12 year old self at the carnival. Do you rememeber the pure

enchantment you felt as you now spot the carnival in the distance? You see the lights and your

heart leapt!

Giddiness begins to happen, as you approach closer still, and now the music is softly sounds,

there are thrill screams from rickety roller coasters, and throngs of people sounds closer, closer

still and then there’s whistle of the man directing you to a pay booth with policeman’s flashlight

that causes us to jump and giggle again, as your parents follow the car packed with as many

children as will fit in it, in front of you while my two brothers and I sit quietly and smile feeling

extremely lucky to have arrived at this wonderland. My mom and dad share passing smiles

together that they were happy of their surprise vacation choice. We enter and the world warps

into a fantasy. The smells of a carnival are fabulous, the lights off the noisy rides and then there

are elephant ears dusted with white sugar, cotton candy a mile high, and corn dogs on a stick.

There were ropes of licorice in red and black….oh I want one of everything I see! There, I want

to ride the merry-go-round, I want to jump on a unicorn horse; but no I take the brown one with

the tongue sticking out weirdly. My brother is two ahead of me smiling with glee he is on a black

stallion, my younger brother is beside me and he is on a tiny white pony with blue eyes and he is

afraid.

My parents station themselves standing between us children, my dad a hand on my brother and

my mom between myself and my little brother, her hand on each horse. We begin, the music is

bellowing, the operator gives us a few rules, now spinning quite quickly, my sweaty hair is

in the breeze. My brother ahead of me thinks we are racing; he is slapping the red strap like

a rein and is smiling and laughing gratuitously. I glance at my baby brother next to me and my

mom is now holding him entirely as the pony pumps up and down. I look above me and I now

realize that my horse is just a stationary one. Just a horse on a pole and now I no longer am

smiling somehow I feel I’m having a less than experience. I want to get off of that goofy horse

anyway! I am dizzy, my baby brother is crying and my other brother is smiling crazily asking to

do it again when we exit the merry-go-round. Secretly, I hated it. But, do you remember how

much you wanted that damned stuff bear? It was deemed the top prize on the runway that year.

Every time I looked up some adorable little girl was sweetly hugging one, except I knew I was

not ever going to be one of them. (father thought games were a waste of money)

 

That night continued, and our little family trudged forward into Never NeverLand, finding a fun

house with fabulous goofy mirrors and hard to walk up floors (they were tilted), but I got scared

because of the freaky clown standing next to the funhouse; he looked directly at me and asked,

“did you have fun little girl?” ugh really? Dad bought us cotton candy and I forgot that freak for

second. We rode all the tiny rides because of my little brother and my parents

hated rollercoasters; that made me happy though. I love a little train and I rode a car that looked

like a ladybug! Back then no one cared if you were 12, they saw you were having fun, they left it

alone. Well, it was getting late and we were getting ready to go home, we were getting crabbie.

By the time we got to the car, my little brother was already asleep on my dad’s shoulder. Both

my other brother and myself were asleep before we left that parking lot.

That night our merry-go-round dreams turned into magical memories, stuffed bear or no; I thank

you mom and dad.

Just Dreaming…..

Just Dreaming……..
I was asked by a child of five the other day, “What is a dream?” And “Do dreams come true?”

So as I answered the questions in the terms I thought he’d understand; then it spurred my
thinking……
Dreams, when did I stop dreaming them? Am I just not remembering them or do I just never
have them? Great questions I posed to myself and now to you.

I love this…”Don’t you find it odd, he continued “that when you’re a kid, everyone all the world,
encourages you to follow your dreams. But when you’re older, somehow they act offended if
you even try.” Ethan Hawke~

Dreams in the most technical way are a simple series of thoughts, images and sensations
occurring in a person’s mind during sleep. No, that’s not exactly what I told the toddler, nor did I
tell them that sometimes those dreams are not all cotton candy and fairy tales. Sometimes dreams
can be dark and awful. But I felt confident that the toddler had a full toddler’s grasp on what a
dream was when I was done talking to him. Getting back to technicalities and research, it is
thought that everyone dreams between 3 to 6 times each night and the dreams can last anywhere
from 5 to 20 minutes. And then here’s the most interesting part, 95% of those dreams you just
had last night are gone and forgotten the minute one gets up!
So I guess that’s where my dreams go, back recessed into my main frame’s hard drive to be
stored in some weird way like a brain CD filled with my dreams, or pop up one day like “this
happened before” kind of thing! Deja’vu. Then there’s the scary movie that I’ll watch and I’m
afraid of dreaming now, So shutting my eyes voluntarily is simply out of the question! You

know those nights where your eyes are heavy and you really are tired, but you better not shut
your eyes…..
just in case. You’ll stand guard, wiping your eyes many times because you think you just saw the
door move, and then it’s time to turn on the nightstand light! Maybe if I read a book or think
funny thoughts that little Chucky guy in the corner will go away!

“Deep into the darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming
dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before”
~Edgar Allen Poe

So I’ll just go back to what Ethan Hawke said, and I’ll just follow my daydreams…
and when I win that lottery you guys will all be the first to know~

Just my thoughts, just my opinions, but always in a ConversationalTone.~